I will move a finger if

Everyone’s unique, right? We all have interests in certain music, sport, and cultivate relationships with people that other’s wouldn’t necessarily. Most of us wake up every day and have something in them that gets them out of bed, into their work attire, outside of the apartment or house, and to work.

If you’re as lucky as I am, the last part is not mandatory thanks to Corona and new Home Office regulations at my company. The last week wasn’t so funny, nonetheless. I had to implement a new feature for one of our customers, and its safe to say that it is the most complicated piece of software I have ever developed. Fuck meeee it was soooo difficult that it took me months of research, weeks to write out the requirements, help of several colleagues regarding the implementation, and finally a whole week - the last five nights, to be precise – for testing and adjustments. I say nights, because testing it required me to destroy a bunch of clusters and I can’t do that if people want to use them during the day.

Doing night shifts in IT is very unusual, but it was exciting to me though, because it means my change has so much impact that it affects a large number of my colleagues? Besides, I won’t deny myself a night of listening to Chris Cornell, sipping Red Bulls with good conscience  (yk, I have to stay awake), and regular cigarette breaks on my beautiful balcony. Thanks to my apartment cornering south-east, I get to enjoy the gentle rise of the sun at dawn – a smooth shift into a new day. Tired and reaching the end of my time window for testing, I did wonder why I would do that.

What is it all for? For the company? HELL NAH. For money? FFFFFUCK NO. Ok maybe a bit. I guess what makes me move a finger (In German you use „einen Finger rühren“ to describe the smallest action that you would take for someone or something) is for my friends and family, not really for myself to be honest. The most challenging thing in my day to day is to be selfish, i.e. to do something that only benefits me. It’s how I am wired and it puts me in a dicey position, because I need people around me that will help me do things that benefit me – basically on a „one hand washes the other“ basis.

I would do anything for my loved ones; whether or not my counterpart returns the favor dictates if I will be frustrated doing so or not. It’s one way to live my life, not sure whether it’s the best way to go about it.